This week, I decided that things had to change. I decided that I had to start over on this journey to lose 200 pounds.
I've been doing poorly for so long. I think I gave up. I think life and circumstances overwhelmed me for a bit, and I just didn't care about anything... including myself.
I have to change. And in order to do that, I have to change my attitude. I have to change my outlook. I have to change my behaviour.
I'm taking small steps to get back on track. For the past 2 days I've been watching my food intake. I'm cutting back and eating healthier foods. Yesterday I did 15 minutes of a Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds DVD. Tonight I am planning on going for a walk in a local cemetery. (Some might think that's morbid, but it's actually my favorite place to walk. It's far away from traffic and people and I won't feel the embarrassment of people watching me.)
I don't want to be fat the rest of my life. But this is just so freaking hard, and I do get discouraged from time to time.
But... I have to change. I have GOT to get back on track... in spite of the present situation, in spite of everything.
Lord, help me!
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- Chubby Chick
- I'm a chubby chick who recently turned 40... and I'm tired of being fat and miserable! Come along and share my journey to lose 200 pounds and gain a healthier and happier me by simply taking it one day at a time and doing the best that I can each day!
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You have it in your header. It's all about perseverance! If you have to recommit yourself a million times, that's ok. Losing weight is so hard. Being fat is hard too so we're choosing our hard! :-)
It is hard but soooo worth it CC. Take good care of yourself!
I'm here for you my friend. I've always believed in you. Believe in yourself, because you can do this once and for all. Make your way over to my blog when you get a chance.
You have the power. You deserve the best. Give it to yourself.
My best always,
Sean
It's so hard turning things around. Just thinking about it can be overwhelming. But you and I both know it can be done.
I'm so glad you have begun to take charge again.
Wishing you an extra good day and an awesome weekend.
Blessings
Aw sweetie. I totally understand. Believe me. I have been where you are so many times. So overwhelmed, discouraged and just plain mad at and sick of myself and my whole situation. I can hear my voice in your words and feel my own emotions in your expressed emotions.
I am happy to see that you are not giving up. I honestly believe that if we just keep trying, never give up and hold on to hope, we will, one day, one way or another find our feet on our path.
Hang tough, girl. Early in this odyssey, I had more bad days, food wise than I had good. But I built on each good day. I might have a good one, then have a bad one. Then have a good one and think that if I could do one... I could do two. And then do two. Then have a bad one and then a good one and well... I think you get the idea. Momentum builds. It grows and soon, it overtakes the negative and the bad days and good days out weight the bad. Then become the norm.
I am not perfect. I still have a bad food day now and then. But I don't allow it to defeat me or pull me back into the disordered morass that was my old way of eating.
Walking is wonderful exercise. I love walking out at the lake. But a cemetery should do the trick, too. As long as you feel comfortable and happy and it makes you want to walk, that is all that matters. I used to feel terribly self conscious about others seeing me, too. But you know what? Screw them! I am out there for ME! For MY HEALTH! What the think, how the judge my fat ass hauling it's self up and down the trails isn't my business. I can't control their thoughts or reactions to me and quite frankly, I don't care about them. One day, you will get there, too. :) :D
It IS hard, but you can do it! You're worth it. It does get easier. I am cheering for you!
you need to help you too! you can do this! It is little choices everyday, all day and you can make good ones because you deserve it and the results.
Glad to see you back, CC. And small steps add up. I think gettng back on track, even if not 100%, will help your mindset and other things, because you'll feel like you have control over SOMETHING, when so much around you is out of your control.
I would recommend you make regular weigh-ins online. That accountability is sometimes what keeps me on track when there's nothing else. Knowing that the number is out there and I have to deal with it.
Most importantly is to focus on destressing, so that the emotional eating doesn't get you. I have the "boredome eating" and "emotional eating" thing, so if I don't find stuff to keep busy, I eat. If I don't sleep well, I eat. If I feel stressed, I eat. So, I have to rewire my brain to do something else in the place of food...like read, nap, sing, etc.
Here's to your new healthy journey...
I'm more than a few steps down from the Lord (*g*), but if there's anything at all I can do to help, please sing out. You're off to a good start, and I hope you soon find a wave of momentum to ride.
We're at the same place right now --I'm starting over too. I'm having shoulder surgery on Tuesday so I'll be recovering for a while, but I'm determined to stay as active as possible during that time, and to get back on track with exercise and eating right. We can do this!
Good luck on your journey. You have lots of support here in blogland, so take full advantage of us. Don't feel embarrassed and feel you need to walk in a cemetery, although I understand. It is quite serene there and peaceful. Do what you need to do.
I am right there with you, girlfriend. I am starting over again for the millionth time. I am challenging myself for one week and hope that might jumpstart me again. Maybe you can join me. Good luck to you.
I was going through the HYC blogroll and just happened upon your blog. I wish you all the luck and strength in the world as you embark on the journey to recommit yourself to getting healthy. I'll be cheering you on!
I'm so glad to see that you haven't given up. Many people -- including me -- have given up losing weight and blogging when the going gets tough, but not you! You just keep on going and are a true inspiration. I have faith that you will meet your goals.
I just found your blog, and I've been reading back in your entries. You're such an inspiration, and I have a good feeling that you can do this. Getting back on track is hard, but it's worth it. I know you can do it!
You can do it, girl. Once you get back in to the swing of things you'll start feeling so good. You'll think back to how silly it was that you got in a rut to begin with. I'm right here with you. I want to be 145 and I'm 320 right now. No WLS for me.
I'm so proud of you!! HIGH FIVE!!!
The cemetary?? At night?? You couldn't pay me to walk in a cemetary at night! ...You know, zombies and all that lol
You can walk around quiet streets too.
You aren't as hidious to look at as you think you are y'know. Not be a long shot!
You will certainly triumph, and you will do it! You have a lot of people in your corner.. remember to call out when you need motivation, encouragement, or just a swift kick in the butt! :-) We're all on the same journey and we need each other!
Hugs!
Hey C.C.
I've been catching up on your blog and I think it's really motivational. The most important thing is for you to keep trying. I've been trying for over a decade and am just now actually finding something I think I can stick with! Keep on trucking and you'll find your success!!
Katie
www.freakingawesomebody.blogspot.com
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