Three Wishes

I wish I had a magical diet fairy godmother. And I wish she would suddenly appear and offer to grant me 3 wishes to help me on this journey to lose 200 pounds. Here's what I would wish for:



1. a close friend on the same journey as me to talk to and work out with



2. to magically have my fat shorn from my body the way wool is shorn from a sheep (wishful thinking!)



3. to have three more wishes (hehe... I had to say that)


Seriously, number 3 would be to wake up tomorrow morning weighing less than 200 pounds and have 24 hours in which to enjoy my new body. Wouldn't that be great??? I wonder what it would be like. I wonder what I would do. I wonder where I would go. I wonder how I would feel.

I bet it would be great. And I bet it would give me more motivation and determination than I would know what to do with.

What would your three wishes be?

It's Not You, It's Me

Dear Food,

We have had an unhealthy relationship for quite some time now. I can't seem to get you out of my head... no matter how hard I try. You're the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning, and the last thing I think about when I lay my head on the pillow at night. I think of you a million times throughout the day as I struggle to resist you, and I sometimes dream about you at night.

How did this affair with you ever start? Why have you come to mean so much to me? Why do I seek you out when I am feeling blue, lonely, happy, nervous, or a million other emotions? Why have I let you rule my life for so long?

It's not that I haven't tried to break it off with you before. I have tried... over and over again since I was 13 years old. We've gone months between flings... but my longing for you always causes me to give in to your sweet seductions. Sometimes I just can't seem to get enough of you.

But we've got to break it off once and for all. No more late night cookies and milk in the soft glow of the kitchen nightlight as my husband unsuspectingly sleeps a few yards away in the bedroom down the hall. No more midnight munchies, huge breakfasts, or unhealthy snacks just because I want to feel the way you make me feel.

We have got to break this off once and for all. And, truthfully... it's not you, it's me!

C.C.

Just a Note...

I just wanted to post today and thank all of you who have been stopping by to check in on me. I really appreciate your kindness and concern, and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. You guys are the best!

I haven't been doing very well the past few weeks. It seems like I've hit a wall and I'm having a very difficult time getting over it. The holidays did not help, of course. I had been doing great until Thanksgiving... and then I totally fell off the wagon. Why is it so hard to get back on sometimes??? That has always been difficult for me.

And here it is... the middle of January. Summer is only a few short months away, and I do not want to enter June weighing what I do right now! I want to be thinner this summer than I was last summer. I want to start to shrink this year!

The good news is... I found an elliptical for 100 bucks! Actually... hubby found it. And I got it this weekend. It's nothing fancy... just a basic model. And to tell the truth... I'm kind of scared to get on it because I'm afraid I will break it! It just doesn't look that sturdy to me, and I'm afraid I may currently be too heavy for it. But... I'm going to try it out either today or tomorrow and hope for the best. If it doesn't break... I'm going to start using it regularly. Oh... I hope it doesn't break!

All I know is... I just REALLY need to get back on track. NOW. I can't waste another year being fat and getting even fatter.

I'll post more often from now on. I promise.

Love you all,
C.C.