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Thursday, December 13, 2007

Day 118-120 - Still Here and Still Fat

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Yes, I'm still here... a chubby chick aimlessly floating around in Fat Blog Land... going nowhere on my "journey to lose 200 pounds." My weight loss has stalled, my motivation is non-existent, and my clothes must have shrunk in the dryer... cuz they are getting pretty freaking tight. And, yes... (taking a cue from Fat Bridesmaid)... I admit it.

I feel like I've been a terrible blog buddy lately, and I apologize. I've been reading everyone else's blogs, I just haven't been leaving many comments because... well... advice and encouragement from someone who has totally fallen off the wagon herself seems kind of hypocritical to me. Nevertheless, I will try to be more supportive of you all from now on... regardless of how I'm doing with my own weight loss efforts. (Wait... did I just type "weight loss EFFORTS???" What EFFORTS??? To be honest... I haven't even been trying lately. How sad is that???)

That being said, I am not discouraged. I know that this is a temporary funk that I am in... albeit a long one, unfortunately. But I still have faith that I am going to get back on track soon and actually start to lose some of the fat that is encasing the lean, hot mama that is hiding inside of me. I do believe that one day I am going to weigh less than 200 pounds. I do believe that one day I will be able to jog a mile... or maybe 2 or 3. I do believe that one day I will look in the mirror and think, "Wow... you look GOOD" instead of... "OMG... I can't believe how freaking fat you are."

So... just bear with me. I'll find my way out of this sugar and stess-laden fog soon and emerge into the wonderful world of weight LOSS with the rest of you.

(((((Blog Buddies)))))


Lyn said...

Poke, prod....
You can do it :)

Once Upon A Dieter said...


Just do two diet-positive thing. Just one today. Drink 10 glasses of water AND write down everything you eat, every bite. Even if you eat 4K calories cause of your funkiness, just write it down and how you felt when you ate (or not) and drink the water.

Sometimes, when the whole healthy eating plan seems overwhelming, just doing one or two non-actual-food-limiting things can keep you anchored to the idea of healthy eating. So, pick two things (exercise and water; food dieary and exercise; food diary and water; doing some writing about your funk over food and water; reading a motivational book and food diary, etc).

Blogging is good, too. Just blogging accountability is like a journal entry about it, and that lets you admit that you're still here, just tired.

BTW, I strongly suggest you do the BECK DIET METHOD cards with Advantages Responses (the ARCs).

Think of as many reasons and good things that come from losing weight. I thought of 41, but I bet with your young, fresh brain, you can beat me. :)

Do it on index cards or a nice heavy stock letter size paper and stick it to your fridge. Read it every day to make sure you don't wander for long.

I know it's hard. I've been struggling and struggling, too. I think part is the endless temptation of this time of year--the idea of being feast-minded and candy-gifting and etc. It makes it so hard. Plus, food makes one think of family and comfort, which is also what Christmas and Hanukah and other holidays at this time make one consider and get emotional about.

Hang in, CC.

Now, I gotta go rest my eyes. I'm squinting!

The Princess

Anonymous said...


I'm sorry you're still having a rough time with this. I wish there was something that I could say to help, but I honestly think you need to be 'ready' to lose weight, and it's not always as easy as saying 'ok, I'm ready' Something needs to happen to put things in perspective again for you. I remember watching my parents struggle with quitting smoking and they always said, 'I can't just quit, I need to be ready' and I think that is the same with weight loss. You sound like such an amazingly beautiful person, and although I'm sure you're gorgeous on the outside, I know what it feels like to want your outside to match the way you feel on the inside. The only thing I can say to motivate you is that the sooner you hop back on track, the sooner you'll see that inner goddess on the outside! You know what you're doing, it's just a matter of telling yourself you're worth doing it for...and you ARE worth it!!

Hang in there! We're all here for you.


exfatgirl said...

Yes, you can definitely find your way out of your funk and get going again. But, I really encourage you to do it sooner rather than later... do it now. I know what it's like to tell myself that I need to lose weight yet not make any effort towards actually doing it. I know how hard it is to do it. But I also know that it can be done. YOU can do it.

Christine said...

Right there with you girl. I thought that I was reading my own blog. It is temporary and we are going to kick some serious ass in the new year. Take care.

Christine said...

Thanks so much for your kind comment. It's been a tough week for me - and its so nice to check my blog and see such caring people. I very much appreciate you sticking with me and keeping an eye on my blog. (((hug)))

Heather said...

glad to hear you are not discouraged or giving up.

and no way, I would LOVE advice, encouragement, etc. from you. in no way does it seem silly because you are REAL, you hae been there, you knwo what its like to struggle. you are the best person to give advice.


I think everyone is feeling funky, so obviously you are not alone. Just keep trying each and every day. One small step at a time. You can do it.

Savy said...

Look, it's the holidays. Almost no one is making progress at this point, even the most dedicated and successful of the bunch. I tell my clients to have a goal to not GAIN, but losing is "eh, whatever" until january 1st.

So do that, just don't GAIN. Take a walk, relax, recharge, and kick butt in january.

FiguringOutLife said...

You can do it, read back over some of your other entries on the weeks where you felt great and excited.. I think revisiting times when I know I was doing well helps get me out of a funk sometimes. Love your blog, keep on writing... if only we lost weight from typing, that would be awesome. :)

Teena said...

I'm still off track ... come January I'll be back at it again!

honib1 said...

Okay.. here is what I think this is how I got started.. and am doing it again.. SET A DATE.. when I first started I picked january 22nd.. to start seeing my nutritionist last year.. I attended a class for 12 weeks.. my first weigh day was jan 22.. 2007.. as it turned out they canceled the class for one week but I still started on Jan 22 I made that decision December 18th of 2006.. so pick a date.. to do one thing.. maybe start on the healthier eating.. my choice is following the Mayo Clinic Healthy weight for everybody..and counting calories..so Make your choice.. pick a date .. and refresh and start then. in the mean time.. try and keep a record of what you are eating.. just so u know.. it helps keep you honest.. and I know how hard it is .. but you can do this.. and any comment you leave on any blog comes from your heart.. not because u are losing wieght but because u have an opinion!!!

Twix said...

I know you can do this! Now don't make me get out my caddle prod... ;) (((Chubby Chick)))

Trisaratops said...

You will weigh less than 200 pounds one day, you absolutely will. We're all here for you - and lean on us when you need us. When you're ready, you'll do it.

Gibbons-Camp said...

hang in there. I'm stalled too, and its gone from annoying to frightening to depressing. I thought that dieting during the holidays was hard because of the good food... but I think it is as much the crummy weather and short days. Hugs and best wishes, and hoping we'll see each other on the other side of this slump!

Weighing in w/ my .02 said...

It happens to all of us. You will do it. I know you will.

Sometimes you just get so sick of "thinking" all the time that you just have to step back. Thinking about what to eat. Thinking about what NOT to eat. Thinking about exercise. Thinking about what you could have done better/diferent/longer/harder/heavier/smarter. Thinking about what to blog about. Thinking about what others said. Thinking about inspiring There is just so much mental exhaustion in the whole process that you can get overwhelmed and need a break. Do what you have to do to get yourself back on track and we'll all still be here when you return.

Kery said...

Others have said it before. This period of the year isn't easy, with all the holidays and temptations and even more tempting thoughts of "there's another one coming up in two weeks, why bother"--and I believe it's even harder for your folks in the USA (at least we French peole don't have Halloween and Thanksgiving to do us in from October onwards, we only have to worry about Chrismtas and New Year!). Lots of people on lots of blogs I read seem to have the same problems currently, myself included. So I think I'll also go with others here: better focus on not gaining anything, rather than absolutely losing. Odds are that you might lose all the same, but not being focused on the same daunting thing can make all the difference.

I wish you all the courage and motivation in the world to go through this funk. I know it tends to end sooner or later, but heh, it's better if it's sooner, right? :)

Krissie said...

I'm still fat too...actually, I'm fatter than when I started this thing.

As long as we don't give up, we haven't lost. As long as you are at least aware of what you're putting in your mouth, and feeling guilty about being lazy (or maybe that's just me), it shows that you still want to make changes, now just isn't the right time.

Lots of us are struggling right now. Don't take it as an excuse, but as comfort.

You aren't alone!

Goaledgirl said...

I know how you feel. It is a hard road ahead, but that doesn't mean it can't be done. We can all do this together!

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